Your Hands

A sweet friend of mine reminded me of this song on fb today, and I just sat and let the tears fall as I listened and felt every word.

I have unanswered prayers
I have trouble I wish wasn’t there
And I have asked a thousand ways
That you would take my pain away
You would take my pain away

I am trying to understand
How to walk this weary land
Make straight the paths that crooked lie
Oh Lord, before these feet of mine
Oh Lord, before these feet of mine

When my world is shaking, heaven stands
When my heart is breaking
I never leave your hands

When you walked upon the earth
You healed the broken, lost and hurt
I know you hate to see me cry
One day you will set all things right
Yeah, one day you will set all things right

When my world is shaking, heaven stands
When my heart is breaking
I never leave your hands

Your hands that shaped the world
Are holding me
They hold me still
-JJ Heller “Your Hands”

We had another stable scan this morning. The blood flows throughout both of their bodies look to be improving.  Avery’s bladder is still small but possibly more globular—Dr. Espinoza said that is a good sign.  Their fluid levels are both about the same.  He reiterated that this is a concern that Avery is possibly not getting enough nutrients, but we won’t know for sure until we do another growth scan next Thursday.  But the fact that her blood flow throughout her body looks good is a big positive.  He did say by “eyeballing” she does look to be growing! Please pray that her piece of the placenta is EXACTLY what her precious body needs to grow and fight and that both of their fluid levels, despite fluctuating, are enough for them to develop perfectly.


Piper looked like she was almost smiling today.

The “defect” where the membranes separated is still there but we are praying that closes.  If it does, the leaking of amniotic fluid will stop.  We’ll have another scan Thursday morning.  Please keep praying! Dr. Espinoza said we are not out of the woods, but we have many positive things to keep us pushing forward. One day at a time.

“I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace.  In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.”  John 16:33

It was so nice to be all together again this weekend.  We had all been missing Daniel.  And what a treat to have Taylor, Ashley, Finley and Jack here! The kids had a blast! The support of our entire family has brought me to tears almost daily.

Daniel and Noah made it back to Midland this morning, and I know seeing his friends and teacher was so good for him.  Noah has had a little bit of a tough time the past couple of days trying to understand when I will “be better” and when things will be back to normal.  These girls are worth it all.  We love them so much and truly can’t express how thankful we are that each one of you are storming the gates of Heaven on behalf of our girls.  THANK YOU isn’t enough, but please know we appreciate it more than we will ever be able to explain.




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